Hurt, but love

How many times have I broken His heart?
How many times have I failed to bring Him the glory He so deserves?
How many times have I disappointed He, who created me to be so much better a person than I am and was?
And just how many times have I hurt those faithful souls, that He used as vessels to bring me back, and closer to Him?

Too many times.

For that, I will turn the hurt into love.
Love that touches the hardest hearts, that changes the minds that are so made up.
Even if it means getting hurt time and time again, I will push on.
And believe that by His grace and mercy, love will inspire greater love.
And then? All praise to God.
Yes.


In my life, Your will be done.

Heart and mind

God does not bypass the understanding of the mind.
Please let the conviction in your heart be aligned with your mind and actions.

Working for Him

Haha I love my family a lot!
Tho me mom nags me quite a fair bit.
We went to City Square for breakfast in the morning. We spent like 30 bucks!
I think my dad is really funny. He wore his sport shoes and when he went up the travelator, he was like "Eh next time can come here to exercise. Like a treadmill ma!"
We were like -.-
But it was funny.
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I'm really pumped for the lifegroup!
We're not going to be called caregroup anymore.
I can really see God using me to bring the lifegroup higher and deeper into our relationships with Him and each other.
We'll be having a picnic lifegroup soon, which I'm like damn excited about!
Hahaha I'm praying hard that God will bless us with more contacts.
I really want Him to use EastB2b to bring love and compassion that the rest of the world can't give to our school!
I am really thankful to God for giving us person after person; we must be doing something right after all. :)
It's really amazing how people want to join us and I believe that it's really God's blessing for His faithful servants!
Its true - the harvest is bountiful yet the workers are few.
We need to have more people having the heart to want to work their ass off for God!

The Call

My mother needs God.
I am an imperfect child, my brother too, yet somehow she can never understand that.
In fact, everything, everything, seems to have the power to tick her off.
And she claims that nothing makes her happy.
I think that its because she has never looked for happiness in the places she least expect it. Or the places whereby she refuse to even acknowledge even its existence.
I often ask God when will be the day that I can see her come to know Him. It seems far away, but I really don't want to give up.
In my heart, I know someday, it will happen. Someday. :)

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Oh Saturday's sermon was timely for me.
Especially in the area of staying true and returning to God's call for me.
Which I kind of caught a glimpse of (the call, that is) the previous week while I was praying at the EBC Challenge.
It was kind of frightening to actually even get that kind of calling, but I'm really psyched for it!
Told Fiona about it, and she went to tell Jacq! Ahh I was so embarrassed. Haha no la.
I definitely want to bring my caregroup to a higher level in terms of spirituality, and also closer together as a caregroup.
I know that I have to grow in order for the girls to grow, so GOD HELP ME! :D
Also, I believe that any area that I need to step up is in ministry.
Argh gosh I've been so unfaithful in that area and I need God to smack me in the face.
Ha no seriously. But I feel that sharing testimony on stage not only humbled me, but also made me more convicted to not only do like, lip service, but serve God with my giftings 100% with my actions!
So I think God knows me the best, that when I get like a role, I will try harder in serving.
So thank God for giving me the chance to be the Soprano's new networker! Haha.
I totally wanna serve God 100% in choir now. I know Cherv is in this with me!

I'm so excited for holidays! ( minus re-exam of course, but Fiona is watching me)
Word for life, Fridays with Granny + Funky Day!, Ministry Awareness Drive, CAMP, Christmas!, East Christmas Dinner =
MORE TIME WITH GOD AND HIS PEOPLE!

Have I really loved?

As I was spending time with God today, I randomly stumbled upon 1 Corinthians 13 again. It struck me really hard. Is what I call love, love?

5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

The truth is this: as much as I often say that I love someone, my actions have proven my love wrong.
If the Lord searches my heart again and again, perhaps by his definition of love he would not have acknowledged me as a loving person. And I know that, I must change.

As I continue to walk this journey of life, I must keep in mind what love really is, and abide by what is a true definition of love. And I know He will help me with it.

Awesome-ness

Should be studying, but found my eyes looking at these instead of my notes. My heart cries out. I NEED THESE!

I wouldn't trade you for silver or gold

I wanna thank God for helping me overcome!
Can't say I've fully overcome, but more or less I'm there. (:
I so totally can't wait to continue my walk, closer and deeper with the Lord.
I don't know how to describe, but every single day I'm falling more and more in love with Him.
My heart really overflows with love, thanksgiving and gratitude; its indescribable.
我爱God-万年！

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Yesterday was Jacq's birthday party at Europe Room.
Happy Birthday, Jacq!(don't think she'll see this, but still feel like saying!)
Sang "I'll Be There" and "The Birthday Song" for her. Enjoyed it, but nonetheless, it was scaryyy.
Had a good time of fellowship with Jacq, Fiona, Yingjie, Meng and Cher later on at night.
Haha wasn't as scary as I thought and I think they're really funny.
Hahahahaha now I know what face gesture to do to Fiona LOLLL
Anyway, it was a good day yesterday.
Hopefully it'll be a good day tmr.
Speaking of tomorrow, will school remain as the only thing I can't overcome???
Oh dearie me, I really can't believe today's the last day of holiday.