I need solitude.
Sounds drama-ish, but I need it.
(I'm holding on, cos' I know if I give up now, I've lost)
EDIT @ 19:23/
I keep thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking.
Under Satan's attack.
Remember remember remember.
If you don't have confidence in yourself, at least have confidence in Him.
It's alright even if only He sees what you've done...
cos' you're only doing everything you're doing to please Him.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Lens of faith
God encouraged me like no other person can through His word yesterday.
I am amazed at how His timing is so perfect, and how He can use me to encourage another person as well.
Hebrews 12 is a chapter called God disciplines His sons.
Through that chapter, God revealed to me how it is to be disciplined by Him. Or rather, how to go through this period of time whereby I will be disciplined by Him.
Firstly, I must remember the opposition Jesus faced.
As compared to what Jesus went through, everything that I'm going through now really seems trivial and pale in comparison.
I must remember this, and fix my eyes on Jesus, and not the problems.
And then, I know I'll be less weary and not lose heart in advancing His kingdom.
Secondly, I must recognize that God is putting me under His training,the training to be more mentally disciplined in doing His will.
He is training me to be a woman of perseverance and faith.
By that alone, we can do what we think we can't.
Whatever I may be facing now may be painful, harsh, strict...yet since when is God's training for us pleasant?
With reference to James 1:2-4 then, I must delight in these trials, for the Lord is putting these trials to discipline me in perseverance and faith , for He is disciplining me because I am His child and He loves me.
If I stand firm in unwavering faith and perseverance, praying with a sincere heart, will the Lord short-change me? Can He possibly pass me by?
What I know for sure is that by faith, the Lord will produce a harvest of righteousness and peace in me (Hebrews 12:11). And that, is worth my perseverance. The Lord's love is worth my faith in Him.
That will be my prayer for today.
Lord, make me a woman with utmost faith in You. Help me delight in Your discipline and trials.
(On a sidenote, I think I need to adopt a bit of apathy towards certain things, instead, find my confidence in the Lord himself.)
I am amazed at how His timing is so perfect, and how He can use me to encourage another person as well.
Hebrews 12 is a chapter called God disciplines His sons.
Through that chapter, God revealed to me how it is to be disciplined by Him. Or rather, how to go through this period of time whereby I will be disciplined by Him.
Firstly, I must remember the opposition Jesus faced.
As compared to what Jesus went through, everything that I'm going through now really seems trivial and pale in comparison.
I must remember this, and fix my eyes on Jesus, and not the problems.
And then, I know I'll be less weary and not lose heart in advancing His kingdom.
Secondly, I must recognize that God is putting me under His training,the training to be more mentally disciplined in doing His will.
He is training me to be a woman of perseverance and faith.
By that alone, we can do what we think we can't.
Whatever I may be facing now may be painful, harsh, strict...yet since when is God's training for us pleasant?
With reference to James 1:2-4 then, I must delight in these trials, for the Lord is putting these trials to discipline me in perseverance and faith , for He is disciplining me because I am His child and He loves me.
If I stand firm in unwavering faith and perseverance, praying with a sincere heart, will the Lord short-change me? Can He possibly pass me by?
What I know for sure is that by faith, the Lord will produce a harvest of righteousness and peace in me (Hebrews 12:11). And that, is worth my perseverance. The Lord's love is worth my faith in Him.
That will be my prayer for today.
Lord, make me a woman with utmost faith in You. Help me delight in Your discipline and trials.
(On a sidenote, I think I need to adopt a bit of apathy towards certain things, instead, find my confidence in the Lord himself.)
Sunday, August 16, 2009
This life is Yours
The sermon yesterday spoke to me greatly.
I've been struggling with quite a few problems lately, thinking far beyond what I should be thinking.
I am not proud of those thoughts that have crossed my mind.
The problem with me is sometimes I think that I'm good, which stems from the fact that deep inside me, I know that I'm far from good.
Ironic isn't it?
I can't say that I've overcome this insecurity completely, but I daresay that the Lord is taking it bit by bit everyday, and He will continue to help me become a girl far more secure in Him than she ever did.
Friday's prayer meet was short for Jess and I, because we had to rush off on a blinkin' cab(the fare was $14) to watch The Spirits Play at NAFA. No doubt the play was awesome, but I'd rather be at the meet praying for the people in my caregroup...
Nevertheless, I was glad that I went for the prayer meet instead of like, Centrestage. Thank you EastBC and Dennis for praying for me; through them, I really felt God's assurance.
Then came Saturday, which was undeniably the best day of the week.
Sermon boosted my confidence a little in leading this young caregroup.
I may not be the best at communicating with people, or establishing a connection/understanding with them...but I know that I have the heart for people.
With this, coupled with God's power in me, what can I possibly be scared of?
But I still want to love. More and more.
How to have genuine concern for my community?
After much thought, I came to my conclusion. Love.
Love people with God's love, with God's grace, without any conditions.
He loved me despite everything that I've done; how can I reciprocate other than love Him and love His people more?
1 Corinthians 13:13
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
What I seek from the Lord today.
To love more.
I've been struggling with quite a few problems lately, thinking far beyond what I should be thinking.
I am not proud of those thoughts that have crossed my mind.
The problem with me is sometimes I think that I'm good, which stems from the fact that deep inside me, I know that I'm far from good.
Ironic isn't it?
I can't say that I've overcome this insecurity completely, but I daresay that the Lord is taking it bit by bit everyday, and He will continue to help me become a girl far more secure in Him than she ever did.
Friday's prayer meet was short for Jess and I, because we had to rush off on a blinkin' cab(the fare was $14) to watch The Spirits Play at NAFA. No doubt the play was awesome, but I'd rather be at the meet praying for the people in my caregroup...
Nevertheless, I was glad that I went for the prayer meet instead of like, Centrestage. Thank you EastBC and Dennis for praying for me; through them, I really felt God's assurance.
Then came Saturday, which was undeniably the best day of the week.
Sermon boosted my confidence a little in leading this young caregroup.
I may not be the best at communicating with people, or establishing a connection/understanding with them...but I know that I have the heart for people.
With this, coupled with God's power in me, what can I possibly be scared of?
But I still want to love. More and more.
How to have genuine concern for my community?
After much thought, I came to my conclusion. Love.
Love people with God's love, with God's grace, without any conditions.
He loved me despite everything that I've done; how can I reciprocate other than love Him and love His people more?
1 Corinthians 13:13
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
What I seek from the Lord today.
To love more.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Jesus take me in your hand
No eye has seen
No ear has heard
The good that the Lord has prepared
for those Who wait on Him
To hear His voice
You are the Potter and I am the clay
So Jesus, take me in Your hand
And make me all that You want me to be
Jesus, help me understand
My purpose and what You can do through me
Fulfilling my destiny
No ear has heard
The good that the Lord has prepared
for those Who wait on Him
To hear His voice
You are the Potter and I am the clay
So Jesus, take me in Your hand
And make me all that You want me to be
Jesus, help me understand
My purpose and what You can do through me
Fulfilling my destiny
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